Children of Heaven

DO NOT Wait for the NEXT DAY

Everything started when I was aged 6 years. When I was playing in the yard of my home in California, I met a boy. He's like the boy who teased me and then I chased him and beat him.

After the first meeting in which I beat him, we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. But it was not long. We always meet at the fence and we were always together. I tell all my secrets.

He was very quiet, he just listened to what I say. I found him easy to talk to and I can talk to him about anything. In school, we have different friends but when we got home, we always talk about what happened at school.

One day, I told him about a boy who I like but it has hurt me. He comforted me and said everything would be fine. He gave words of encouragement and helped me to forget it. I am very happy and consider it a true friend. But I knew that there was something else from him which I like. I thought about it that night and decide if it is the sense of camaraderie.

During high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I think that this is friendship. But deep down, I know that there is something else.

On graduation night even though we have a couple on their own, I really want that I am the one who became her partner. That night, after everyone left, I went to his house to say it. That night is the biggest opportunity that I have but I just sat there and stared at the stars and talk about our ideals. I looked into his eyes and listened to his story about his dream. How he wanted to get married and so on. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.

I went home with hurt feelings because I did not tell me the truth. I really want to say that I loved him but I was afraid. I let that feeling go and say to myself that one day I'll tell him about my feelings.

While in college, I wanted to tell him but he was always with someone. After graduating, he got a job in New York. I am very happy for him, but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I am sad because I realized he was going to work great. So I keep my feelings to myself and watched him go by plane. I cried when I hugged him because I feel like this is the last time. I went home that night and cried. I felt hurt because I did not say what's in my heart.

I obtained a job as a secretary and eventually became a computer analyst. I am very proud of my accomplishments. One day I received a wedding invitation. Invitation from him. I am happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and we could only be friends. I went to the wedding next month. It was a great event.

I met with the bride and of course also with him. Once again I fell in love. But I held back so as not to disrupt what should be the happiest day for them. I try to have fun that night, but it is very hurtful to see him so happy and I am happy to try to cover up the tears of sadness in my heart.

I left New York feeling that I had done the right thing. Before I left, he suddenly appeared and said goodbye and told me how he was very happy to see me. I went home and tried to forget everything that happened in New York. My life must go on.

Years passed, we wrote to each other and talked about everything that happened and how she longed to talk with me. At one point, he never again reply to my letter. I am very worried as to why he had not written after I had already written 6 letters to him. When everything seemed hopeless, suddenly I received a little note that says, "Meet me at the fence where we used to talk"

I went there and saw him there. I am very happy to see him but he was heartbroken and sad. We hugged until we could to breathe. Then he tells me about the divorce and why he never wrote a letter to me. He cried until he could not cry anymore. Finally we returned to the house and talked and laughed about what I had done to fill time. However, I still could not tell him how I felt real to him.

In the following days, he was excited and forget all the problems and divorce. I fell in love with him anymore. When it came time for him to return to New York, I met him and cried. I hate to see him leave. He promised to see me every time she gets off. I can not wait for him to come so that I can with him. We always have fun when you're together.

One day he did not appear as promised. I think that maybe he was busy. Days turned into months and I forget. One day I got a call from New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident on his way to the airport. It broke my heart. I was very surprised by this incident. Now I know why she did not show up that day. I cried all night. Tears of sadness and pain. Wondering why this could happen to someone so good like him?

I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading
his will. Of course everything was given to his family and his former wife. I finally got to meet her again after the last time we met at the wedding. She told how her ex-husband. But he always seemed happy.

Whatever he did not make him happy, like when their wedding. When the will was read, the only one given to me was a diary. It is a diary of his life. I cried because it was given to me. I can not think, why is this granted to me?

I took it and flew back to California. When I was on the plane, I remembered the good times we had together. I started reading the diary. Diary begins when the first day we met. I keep reading until I started to cry. The diary told that he fell in love with me that day when I have broken my heart. But he was afraid to say it to me.

That is why he was so quiet and listen to all my words. The diary tells how he wants to say to me many times, but fear. The diary told of when he was to New York and fell in love with another. How she was so happy when they met and danced with me on her wedding day. He said that he imagined that it was our wedding.

How he was always unhappy until he had to divorce his wife. Best time in his life was when reading the letter by letter that I wrote to him. Finally, the diary ends with the words, "Today I will tell him that I love him"

That was the day he was killed. Day which in the end I will find out what really is in his heart.

If you love someone, "DO NOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT DAY TO SAY TO HIM" because tomorrow it might never exist ..